Today is a sad day. I don’t think I can say more than that to express what has happened.

Yuna is my cat – but as was obvious today – was so much more than a cat. She was like my kid. And she has not been well, particularly since October. Her condition worsened significantly this weekend, and I had her put to sleep today.

That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my entire life. I felt like I totally betrayed her because she had no say in the matter. I know it was necessary, but I feel it was a terribly shitty thing to do to someone who has been in my life for four years, watched me kill relationship after relationship, pass stone after stone. And today I watched and cried as she went to sleep. David came with me, thank God. I don’t know that I could have done it alone. And David has always been a great source of comfort, so I’m happy he offered to go. There are obvious reasons why he’s my best friend.

I came home to an empty house tonite. It’s hard. It’s quiet. And it’s minus Yuna, which is devastating to me, and I feel a major void. I will miss Yuna very much.

Thank you all who have supported me with Yuna over the past years through advice, donations, and general affection. I appreciate it greatly, and I’m sure Yuna does too.