I can’t believe it’s already mid-August 2005. WTF. Time has flown by so fast. I’ve been at Continental almost 5 months now — and in that 5 months so much has happened to me … I’ve really grown a lot and my perspective on a lot has changed, particularly my view of myself. I’ve always been so unsure of myself, viewed myself as undeserving, just another hack struggling to get by. And sure, I still think that half the time — but thanks to Adam, Kevin, my mom and these projects at Continental, my programming skills have grown leaps and bounds — and I actually enjoy doing it. Adam has been so patient with me, trying to help me to understand concepts and ways of doing things. I know he gets frustrated because my vocabulary in describing things is kind’a limited. But I really contribute a lot of my learning to him. So thank you, Adam. 🙂
Anothing thing that has grown a lot in the last 5 months has been my relationship with David. He’s my bestfriend and I feel like I’m the luckiest boy alive to be able to have the job I do, that I enjoy doing, and being able to work daily one on one with my best friend. Things have been a little rough the past few weeks, and I was writing in my journal last nite about things and what has been going on at work — and I realized that I so wouldn’t be here where I am today if it were not for him. I met him almost 5 yeas ago, and from that point on, my life took a different route that has made me someone different than I otherwise would have been without having him in my life. His influence has brought me through a lot, taught me a lot, and helped me grown my talents. We started a business together and still run it, and we work well together. I love him a lot, and feel more than blessed to have him in my life.
I have also been healthier the past 5 months (knock on wood) than I have been in a good while. I’ve passed a few very small stones (small as in I wasn’t aware of them until they came shooting out), but nothing that has required meds or a trip to the ER. My water intake has increased dramatically and my Dr. Pepper intake has deacreased. So three cheers for good health. 🙂
I’ve started writing a book … nothign that I am going to go into here right now, but it is an endeavor I’ve thought about for several months and am finally starting out. That is one project … I’ve also started getting back into doing massages again.
I graduate this January. Three more classes to go and I cannot wait to be done. To have a degree after all these years. I graduated from Ricks in 1999 with an AA — and now, i’m almost 29, and i’ll be getting my BS (and a lot of debt). But regardless, I’m proud of myself for being as dedicated as I have been to maintain a decent GPA, get my work done, and actually learn something in the process (well, except for that second Java class that Kevin did for me *cough* helped me with. 🙂 Thanks again, Kev. You’re a peach. :))
But ya know — overall — my life is improving. I’m taking steps to improve it finally instead of hoping it would improve itself. A little ambition goes a long way — I think there’s an analogy about a bush and barrel, but can’t think of it for the life of me … so i’ll make up my own: A lush in a bush is better than a drunk in a barrel.
But again, I’d like to thank my friends — Adam, Kevin, David, Alex, Rachel, Michael-gurl, Patrick, my mom … for helping me these last 5 months. I love you all (yes, even you Kevin, not that you read this …) and I’m really very very thankful that I have you all in my life.